Pregnancy Anger Management

I have found that lately, being pregnant, I have no energy to get mad.  So instead I cry.  You should try it, when you are done you feel better because you cried out all the bad and have nothing to regret but spent tissues.  Best of all, you don't even have to be pregnant to enjoy the benefits of this anger management gig.

Never been much of a crier, but this seems so simple and effective.  Pray, cry, deep breath, praise the Lord and go.  Feels like instead of blowing up it gives me the time to talk to the Lord about whatever is getting to me, I think the tears come from the fact that I don't know what to do to solve the current "problem".  While putting it firmly in His hands, I cry.  I cry for knowing that I don't know the right way to respond.  And yet, when I pour it out to Him, I can get back up fully knowing that He is going to help me tackle whatever it is that I am facing.

It is a conscious choice for me to cry.  It isn't my first response.  Yelling is.  I have to go be alone with the Lord for a minute (usually a bathroom break) and choose to cry and ask for help.

Maybe this is easy because I am pregnant, but pregnant or not it seems a better way to handle it than freaking out like a lunatic.  

Psalm 28: 2  Hear the voice of my supplications, when I cry unto thee, when I lift up my hands toward thy holy oracle.

Psalm 28:6,7,8  Blessed be the Lord, because he hath heard the voice of my supplications.  The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in Him, and I am helped:  therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise Him.  The Lord is their strength, and He is the saving strength of His anointed.

Psalm 107:28 Then they cry unto the Lord in their trouble, and He bringeth them out of their distresses.

A Home School Meltdown and a Home School Meltdown Averted.

This is the story of a failure and a success.  It is a simple, simple story.  It begins with a bad day.  Definition of bad:  Yelled, got exasperated because things weren't going as fast as I would have liked.  Nagged the kids and rushed them.  Root cause of the frustration:  (this is where I take responsibility for my own bad behavior which affected the outcome of the home school moment)  I woke up late and started school late when we had somewhere to be at a certain time.

This created what I call, "home school meltdown".  My fault.  Sorry guys.

Our ending and success comes the next day.  Thankfully God's mercies are new every morning.  It could have been rough.  Thankfully the meltdown was averted.  The definition of success:  No yelling or exasperation. Root cause of better day:  I confessed my prior sinfulness, grabbed those little beauties hands and we prayed for a better day.  The confession humbled me enough to remind me that when the frustration comes that there is a better way.

So simple.  So easy to forget.  Simply that, when I give my day to God and remember that He is the author of it all I don't get so easily out of whack.  Praise His name for the grace to begin anew.  Thank you to my babies for the grace to forgive me to being a jerk too.  They are so wonderful.  Even when they  can't remember 7x9 for the 100th time or when they will not capitalize the first letter in their sentences.

Day 1

Couldn't get the french fry out of from between the oven and oven door.  Hacked the poor fellow to death with metal spatula in an attempt to dislodge it from it's wayward position.  Does this count as an anger management fail?  Yes, because I raised my voice and hollered at it in an attempt to make myself feel powerful and in control.  Did this accomplish said purpose?  No, no it did not.  It made me feel stupid for yelling at a potato.

Conclusion of the matter:

Those who lose their tempers usually do look foolish.  This I must learn if I am to master my emotions.